I Am Me

I leap too fast. I am vulnerable. I am paranoid about really good things. I believe that evil things exist in this world. I don't enjoy the outdoors as much I would like to. I let laziness take over important things sometimes. I procrastinate, a lot. I form my opinions about people too soon sometimes. I am quick in making really big decisions. Fortunately, these have turned out pretty good so far, but no guarantees.

I am kind. I see beauty in everything. I am compassionate. I am a great friend. I hate liars. I am creative. I have pretty good luck in tricky matters.

Tricky matters as in situations that are really extreme. Winning lotteries, avoiding speeding tickets, getting my car towed - these are not tricky. Tricky enough to determine the fate for the rest of my life - those are the matters I refer to. I do believe in "jinxing", so I will not iterate my luck out in words.

I have really great friends. They help me escape to amazing places. Places that fill your heart with warmth and gratitude. They always hug me when I see them after a really long time and tell me that I'm amazing, even when I'm down. They tell me I'm beautiful even when I cry, and that I deserve better even when I believe I have the best of everything. They are the "loves of my life" at this moment. Thank you.

I was talking to one of the loves of my life about "true love". We were talking about what loving encompasses. He explained that true love is when you want the other to be happy, regardless of whether they are with you. When love extends beyond desire, its true love. Yes, it's such a DUH moment. But I don't remember ever feeling like that for anyone. Loving wholesomely without ever requiring love to come your way is selfless. I told him I want that. He told me that I would be a hopeless romantic if I experienced true love. Romance doesn't have much to do with true love, though. Cheers to that.