Ode to 2007

Changing seasons have been significant of transitions so far.

This year has been a roller coaster, to say the least. I have realized that you don't have to see something in the face to know what it feels like.

I haven't seen the face of sorrow, but I have been so full of sadness that the core of my soul has cried. I haven't seen the face of disappointment, but I have been utterly let down, to the point where it was impossible to get back up. I haven't seen the face of happiness, but I have been so immensely joyful that nothing could touch me. I haven't seen the face of laughter, but I have laughed so hard that my stomach hurt, taking away all my miseries (Thank you Shami). I haven't seen the face of anger, but I have been so angry that I could have snapped at anything. I haven't seen the face of fear, but I have been so afraid that I wanted to disappear from the face of the planet. I haven't seen the face of vulnerability, but I have been so open and low that nothing was too small to step over me. I haven't seen the face of beauty, but I have been so beautiful that I amazed myself. I haven't seen the face of intelligence, but I have experienced some intangible genius moments. I haven't seen the face of ugliness, but I have seen the most hideous demons. I haven't seen the face of surprise, but I have experienced this element overtime yet momentarily.

Beautiful things have happened this year. Losing love. Finding Love. Heartbreak. Realizations about my true friendships. Going to jail. Crying randomly thinking about the most beautiful things, including my mother's ever-growing beauty inside and out, my father's unending increasing understanding and hand in everything I do and wish to accomplish. Finding my first full time job. Moving into an apartment by myself. Celebrating the greatest events of the most important people to me. My sister's transition into womanhood. My true feelings for some very interesting people. Finally getting my tattoo. My endless poetic escapes with myself, thank you to the big man upstairs for this creative gift.

I thank God for all the great things that have happened to me in the last twenty three years. I would also like to thank Him for all the bad things that happened to me, so I could really enjoy the good things and cherish them. I have grown more this year than I have in the last three, combined.

I will borrow this quote from Dan Y.: Knowledge is bliss, ignorance is piss.

Looking forward, always....