In My Head...

some randomness

i was thinking how amazing it is to be a kid...you know when you're younger you don't realize that because you dont know what you know now..but now that my brain hurts from complicated scenarios presented to me by people, situations, school, coconut heads (lol), etc i just imagine what it owuld be like to be just content iwth a block of legos....

all you have to do is play with some blocks and life is great..not only do you feel good about it, but you are actually happy...happiness is such a blissful thought...everyone is tryin to be happy, but they are really chasing after something else..i dont think its wrong because its natural...everyone wants someTHING, and that originally stems from what feels good but eventually the feeling of pursuing that THING takes over and the happiness is forgotten about...

i keep coming back to this but you know there are some people that for no reason you just feel a little bad for them...for NO reason..you dont have anything to base that on, but somethign about their demeanor or how they do things makes you think of them as people who are sorry, sad, not forgiven by someone they love, or something along those lines....and i've felt that i've seen a lot of those people lately..or maybe im just being super empathetic but its still a feeling that bothers me, because my world is complicated enough with its little tweeks, i dont want to lay all that burden on my chest for others..but they dont ask me to, and most of the time these "people" who I refer to in my head as "strange angels" are completely oblivious to my feeling that way...get away get away get away..HA

i've also been getting compliments from complete strangers...not necessarily about my looks (which is very flattering, of course), just in general about an aura...i went to this little mexican place in town last weekend and this old lady just comes up to me and she goes you're a poet aren't you..im like yeah i like to write occassionally..and she said she thought so 'coz i was staring at something "not out of the ordinary" looking amazed...and then she bought me this mexican pop thing..whatever but that isnt' the point (even though that pop wasn't good) LAAAAAAAAAA

so yeah..just had to write down some thoughts so excuse the puntuation and grammar situation..i love reactions and i've been getting private messages from people about my notes but just post 'em on here as comments so others can get something out of it too......

what's rockin' your world lately? *grinsssssssssss*